Needs to get back into this

Ya know, I haven't done this since last September and so much has happened yet I cant think of words to say. Pretty much the only thing in my head right now is Jay Brannan and the play Bang Bang You're Dead. If you haven't heard of either, look 'em up.

"Applying moisturizer in the microwave window
for the tenth time, he should've called me an hour ago
would he be here with flowers if I lived in Arizona?

they say there's no love left in the big cities, it's kinda true
I guess you'll find me coming soon to a small town near you
I'll sell my guitar so i can by myself a tractor

---- this, this can't be my life
I've moisturized ten times tonight
why can't I sit down and write,
bring this question to light?

Do you want a lover, or do you want a life?
One hand or the other, the butter or the bread knife?
Do you choose winter, spring, summer, or fall?
It's driving me crazy that I can't have it all"


"I could give a million reasons
why we should not be friends
our moods change like the seasons
my mood ends your mood begins and
you’re a tease, you’re a cockblocker,
you’re a loudmouth -----, and a big talker,
but that’s okay
you’ll grow up someday"


"You say good start
I say perfect ending
This world has no heart
and mine is beyond mending

Wiping down menus of food I can’t afford
If this is my destiny then
why am I so bored?
...
Can’t write songs as well as you
Can’t play guitar
the way that I want to
...
Breaking up is hard to do
but waking up is harder
I had plans, and they fell through
now I’m back to beg and barter"


"if I could force you to love me, I would
you’d teach me not to be psycho, I know you could
give me one final chance, I’ll be good
never believed in love at first sight, but now I think I might"


"Three weeks and counting ‘til he’s on his way to France
Not a dime in his pocket but a ticket in his hand
He’s a cynical ------- but there’s hope in his eyes
It’s been a long time coming, spent a long time running from his insides

He tries hard to songwrite his way out of bed
But nothing tastes as clever as it sounded in his head
He wants to get his teeth wet and sink his feet in
He should have billions of dollars ‘cause every ---hole’s put two cents in

And he writes the songs
Yeah, he can say what he wants
Yeah, he can be who he wants to
And they say he’s wrong
But they keep tagging along
Yeah, they can leave if they want to
And his way will never meet yours
He’s got the world on his back
And watch him take it on all fours

And this world will soon be the death of him
And his voice will fade away
And his jeans will be all that’s left of him
And they’ll wonder if he was okay
And the Alkies will say it was drinking
And the preacher will say it was sin
And his mother will say he was thinking only of himself again
And the gays will say it was straight people
And the straights will say it was AIDS
And he’ll be in line at the gate, people still standing in his way"


"To the boy who should have loved me,
From the girl you could've had.
I promised not to send this letter,
I wouldn't want you to feel bad.
For not opening your heart to me,
For your unavailability.

I guess you're not required to like me,
But did you fake it just to spite me?

Well here's a little String-a-long song for you.
Just give up your pride, your past, your pain, your fear of intimacy
And string-a-long with me too.

Thanks for leading me on,
But this time I'm gonna be strong--
Although your disinterest kind of came as a surprise cause
You could see the sin and the sadness
And taste the gin and the madness
on my lips, and in my eyes well
I can't help that I wanna see you again.
But it takes two to start a string-a-long song
And only one... to make it end.

Well the Flake Syndrome is an epidemic
That spans the globe from town to town.
But I can't figure out why you put forth such an effort
To win me over, just to turn me down.
Cause your words are so soft and sweet,
But your actions are screaming.
And if you see me waiting around for you,
I hope you also see you're dreaming.

Thanks for leading me on,
But this time I'm gonna be strong--
I wish you weren't too scared to speak your goodbyes cause
The truth is I wish you well, thanks for saving me from hell
I owe you one of the few I got left of my nine lives.
Well, I can't help that I wanna see you again.
But it takes two to start a string-a-long song
And only one... to make it end."


"I’m not laughing because we fell through
it’s the stories they told us when we were younger about life and love
how our happiness lies in the hands of another
who’d fly in on the wings of a dove

well that’s the way the fairy tale goes
boy meets girl and they wed with roses
but that’s not the way it seems to be
and I’m pissed that they lied to me
cuz boy meets boy and boy runs away
or girl meets girl and she’s afraid to stay
we end up home alone watching court tv
not living ever after happily

you’re right
you are prince charming
onto the next princess when he’s bored with the last
he’s the hero of every story
he’s got his chapter in every girl’s book
he walks away with all the honor and glory
but I wonder what else he took

goodbye, Prince Charming
and drown Sleeping Beauty
shove Cinderella’s slipper where the sun don’t shine
toss The Little Mermaid back out to sea
cuz the Fairy Godmother had to perform another abortion today
and the Seven Dwarves live in the forest, of course, cuz they were driven away
but this part of the story could spark a cultural rage
so at the sound of the tone we just turn the page"


"perfect body, perfect smile
your touch renders me servile, I love the
the way you speak to me, so sweet yet obscene
the way you smell of chlorine

I'm addicted, and you'd agree
I crave you endlessly

they say your body's a temple, well, boy were they right
this feels so simple, I could kiss you all night
and I could spend forever in the palm of your hand"

Firefox fails, Weird brother, Selfconcious jocks, and a prayer for those who need it

I click on Firefox once
Nothing Happens
I click on Firefox twice
Nothing Happens
I click on Firefox continually for 30 seconds
I spend the next minute closing the 39/40 Firefox windows that opened
Story of my life.

So I'm just sitting here at my computer typing away when my brother tells me to come to the living room. Well considering me and my brother only talk when we have something serious to say or when we have something completely ridiculous to say, I'm scared. So I untangle myself from my computer cords (which took quite a bit of effort) I walk into my living room and see that my brother is holding my calculator. He hands it to me and I see this
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And he asks, Does this look like the KoolAid Man to you?
I turn around, walk back to my room, and completely ignore him.

Any who, Now that my family isn't disturbing me anymore, I will get to the whole reason for this particular post. I will leave out all names and what class it was so I will not upset anyone or give their friends any more reason to antagonize them, but, this is my slightly entertaining story.

So I'm sitting in this one particular class and I sit between these two guys who are ya know, popular, sporty guys. Well we had to turn in this assignment which, of course, they didn't finish. So the one on my left goes, "Hey, whats the answer to number 5" , so, I decided to be nice and I tell him. But, evidently I went to fast so hes like "Just give me your paper." So he takes it from me and continues to copy all my answers. So I say, "Um, no. If you would have taken the effort to finish it you would have found the answers just fine." I may have insulted his intelligence slightly and for that, I am sorry. But while I was distracted by him being all "But-- But-- Im not dumb" I dont realize that the guy on my right side has stolen my paper and is copying the answers that HE didnt do. When I realize this I of course say the same thing I did to the other boy. They are infact, hurt that I believe they are dumb and are very sad that I dont love them like the rest of the school I know this because of these simple words "But... We're smart... And... stuff" and stuff like that. Then guy #3 goes "Hey (Insert guy on the lefts name here) do you have the answer to number 3?" Guy on the left looks at his paper and says in a very sad tone "... No" Turns to me and asks "Do you have number 3?" I say yes. He looks sad, and is slightly annoyed that I didnt give in to his wishes. I'm sorry you two (if they read this they will know who they are) for insulting your intelligence, but maybe next time you will do your assignment. :)

Now on a more serious note, I would like to say that I have Sam and Zach and everyone they know in my prayers. If anyone associated with this is reading this, please message me on Facebook if you need anything, I really want to help.

Until next time
Kkx

P.S.
I cant spell ridiculous without thinking of Harry Potter.

P.S.S
Spell check wants to change KoolAid to Koo Laid
... what?

The Reasons NOT To Start Blogging

1. You have to do it all the time or you lose all effort.
2. You're life is busy anyway, dont add another thing.
3. You are taking a creative writing class and all your creative energy needs to go into that class
4. You run out of topics very fast
5. You usually forget about it after a week.

Okay, Excuse time over, now it's time to talk business.
Junior year has been pretty great thus far but holy crap there is already so much stuff!
Not only do I have homework, but I have to continue being obsessed with amazing musicals and actors, and I need to learn how to play some songs on the piano and keyboard.

So remember when I said Excuse time was over? Well, I lied. It had only began. I think it really is over now though.

Nothing real excited has happened yet except for auditions. I'm pretty excited about that. Monday morning is the moment of truth. I am scared. Either way I wont care but I still just want to know right now.

Well, I feel sick and I need to go be obsessed with stuff now.

Until next time,
kkx

I believe, All will be forgiven

The past two days have been amazing... except for ya know, saying bye to Caleb.

Spring Awakening!
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was incredible, the lighting, the set, the acting, the singing, the stage door!
everything.
Zina and Ashton and Maria have the good pictures so I'm not putting any on here but I will, eventually.
The only thing i have to say and I will probably say it many more times is...
BEN MOSS :(((((
He wasn't play Ernst.. I made me so sad. But Stephie D made it tons better.

Chicago is a lovely place and yesterday was lovely but I kinda dont want to just sit and brag about it so I wont.

I hate mysterious people... anyone else? cuz I really do. More on that another day.

Today was church and then Aubrees Birthday Party where we had fun playing in the sand and playing lava (which I hadnt played since like.. early grade school) I'm pretty positive Ashleys cousin kid cheated. It was horrible. but fun.

Then the text I have known was coming, Caleb saying he was leaving.. I dont want these people to leave! It's so much worse than I thought it was going to be!

All I have to say is that you are lovely people and I hope that you all succeed in all that you do. Keep in touch and have loads of fun.

Until next time,
Kkx

Doesnt have time to write this

Is sitting at home with Alex and my brother and my mom watching Batman.
Today was Link Crew, Library, and mowing the lawn
I'm tired and have nothing else to say except,
Spring Awakening tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can't wait!

This is the area where I was going to write about how hamburgers are evil because Nick suggested it but I'm too tired to be creative, sorry Nick.

I need to be up early tomorrow so I should probably be in bed.
Until next time,
kkx

6 days before... kinda

I just realized that my day counting isn't exactly correct considering I went back to school today for Link Crew training and will go again tomorrow then on Tuesday to 'pep up' the Freshmen.

All I know is I really didn't think that Link Crew would require so much speech skill or so much memorizing. I think it will be fun though.

After Link Crew we went to the library then I took puppy monster to the vet.
Those who don't know who puppy monster is, shes a puppy, shes 4 months old, she ways 50 lbs., and is the size of a full grown Labrador Retriever. If I had a picture I would show you but sadly, I don't. But the funny thing is, that even though she's the size of an overgrown adult dog she is possibly the cutest puppy. Why? because imagine a puppy you know, slightly (or should I say very) klutzy, cute bark, does the 'I WANNA PLAY!' pose but doesn't quite know how to control her body and doesn't realize how big she actually is.

After that, I went to get a hair cut. I like it. But that isn't the 'interesting to blog about' part. My hair cutter was possibly the most amusing (actually second most amusing to the lady who cut it in London) hair stylist I've had. She was funny and super trendy and also a huge klutz like me :)
Just in the time it took to cut my hair she tripped, cut her finger, and burned herself on the hot iron. Also, unlike most stylists who just make small talk and are like 'aww you have such beautiful hair' she was completely real and was quite annoyed when she found out that the bottom of my hair ALWAYS either flips in or out so she had to straighten my hair over, and over, and over again and it still didn't work so while yelling that my hair sucks at life, she burnt herself on the hot iron. AND she's an aspiring vegetarian :) I am completely amused by her and will definately go to her again.

Well, tomorrow I need an introduction that I haven't worked on so looks like it's going to be the first late night of many.
Also, drive-in :) hopefully.

Until next time
kkx

7 days before: ZooVentures

Reliving your childhood is possibly the best feeling in the world. Especially when your childhood involved wild animals and trains.

So today was filled with zoo and hot but thats okay because on Tuesdays its half price admission day and since I'm still considered a kid at the zoo, admission was only $2... heck yes. I'm all for being called a kid when it makes things cheaper.

The zoo involved

Emus that definitely tried to attack us

Giant koi fish (That Zina was afraid of just for the record)

Zebuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuus

Kissing goats

Cotton candy and Popcorn

Smelling of Mountain

and The Hogwarts Express

Thats right, The Hogwarts Express. I was sitting by this girl I dont know and I think she thought we were mentally challenged. We pretty much sang and talked about musicals the whole ride then got of the train and sang A Very Potter Musical and danced wildly.

After the zoo we went to the library where we had A LOT of fun making fun of Zinas hot pants. Even Robert joined in the fun and also this kid we met (more about him later). I also really enjoy having Roberts number now... big mistake on his part. But anyway at the library a guy walked in and me, Zina, and Ashton all agreed he was quite cute. After awhile of him staring at us and laughing at how loud and obnoxious we are, he moved to the table right by us. After a little longer of him laughing at Robert making fun of us and he talked to us. He was pretty entertaining except for the fact that he called me little even though I'm only a year younger than him. Long story short, me and Ashton gave him all of our numbers and then left the cafe and will probably never see him or hear from him again.

Also, my brother and his friends are dumb. When talking about 'That magical store Ben keeps talking about' as Wes calls it, This is what happened
Its called Disc Replay. - Kyra
Yeah, Disc Jockey - Ben
Disco World - Wes
Disco Stew? - Nick
Disco Inferno. - Wes

*Facepalm*


Well, this was a lot longer than I was planning... There was a lot to say I guess.

Until next time
-kkx